waiting

I'm in my car, in front of my house, its 9:08 p.m. on a Tuesday night. I'm waiting for something, but I have not idea what, or who I'm waiting on. I look out my rearview and see nothing. I look through my side Windows and see nothing. I look at the house beside me and I see nothing. I see a light on in one house, and it reminds me of a dream I had two nights ago. More like a nightmare, and I have to say thay was the scarest nightmare I ever had. Right now, I thinking and asking myself. Who am I waiting for, what does this person have, or is it a thing, when will they come or will they ever come, where should I be, is this the right spot or should I just go inside, I think I'm afraid to go inside though. Why do I wait, I don't like waiting but I feel like I have to. How will this affect my life. Well there is only one way to find out. I just have to wait and see what happens.

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Emotional

It's hard, I've lost one, and tried holding on to another that was never mine. My heart has felt so much different things, it doesn't know what feels good and what feels bad. I don't wanna be hidden from the world. I want to take the world and throw it and gave my dog pick it up and play with it until he is tired because I never would. I don't know what I desire anymore, I don't know what I enjoy anymore. I want to be able to live again, but I'm not, I'm stuck and trapped at bottom. Can you, the angel I let get away, can you come back and show me the way to go. Can you just lend me your hand. So that I to will be able to fly one day once again. Help, help, help, help, help, help ..............

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Busy

Just wanted to let ya'll know that i haven't died or nothing, I've just been really busy while at home, and haven't had time or post another blog, but don't worry, the blogs are coming and soon

Life

Everybody has different views on life. Some people say live your life to the fullest with no worries and some people say think about every little thing before you go out in do it, etc etc. My point is that there is a lot of different views on the topic. So i decide to share my view on what you should do or just how i feel about life in general. Basically, I feel that the life you life should be surround by your passion/dream. I feel like you should do whatever it takes to always be surround by that atmosphere, while still being true to yourself in your views. Not letting anybody telling you that it is impossible to accomplish or that it just is not meant for you. Even if that was the case you should understand that it is not but find a different route to still have it in your life. For example, you love football, but your the worst football player ever. Everybody says you won't make it to college to play football, but then you make it. Everybody says that you won't make it to the league, and you don't. Now the question is do you give up on football or find a different way to still be apart of football. Go out in find a coaching job, try in be an agent, get a job for the writing the football articles in the newspaper (while you would have already had planned out for your backup plan you get what I'm saying.) you find something that will still make football a part of your life. So to wrap it up in a bombshell (probably wrong metaphor but idc) live your life doing something you love and are passionate about, and i promise no matter what happens you will still be happy/satisfied what the results. I am ;)

Big Sean

That dude Big Sean is finally getting played on the radio, if you don't know who is he u is messin up

Check it

So thank you to the person who showed me the light on things I could not see.  Sometimes all you need is a little push to do what you feel is the correct thing to do.  And for sometime I felt things could be okay but deep down inside I knew they would not be.  But i startled for what i had because I was afraid of what I might not be able to acquire/conquer.  So I was tryna take the safe way out instead of challenging myself to be great.  I realize that if somebody else was in my shoes I would have said to do something else instead of what I did myself.  But its cool cause my eyes are now open and I know what I need and what I need to do.  I know this blog do not really talk about something of real importance, but I just needed to write out my thoughts instead of holding it all inside, as if I was okay.  Cause in reality I'm not and I'm probably crying out for help right now, but I don't wanna seem weak so when you ask I say I'm okay.  But when you look in my eyes you see the complete opposite.

P.S.
Thanks everybody who checked up on me.

Know Tyme

Early in the Morning

So its early in the morning, and I'm still wide awake working on some music (this is what happens when i get excited). I feel pretty good about this mixtape its just about finish just got a couple more tracks to mix and what not.  Times like this remind me why I have to follow music, because any other job I would have I would not be able to stay up this late and still function properly.  Even though this is hard work with long hours in the end every second was worth the outcome.  The ultimate goal for me is to have that one song everybody can vibe to.  As long as I have that one song on each mixtape that people be like, "yo play that joint back real quick" I'm happy.  I don't need a billion in one fans(even though that would be nice), I don't need 100 million dollars, because worrying about that stuff blinds you from the ultimate goal, which is to make good music.  All I need is to know that I make good music and people can nod theirs head to it every time it plays.