Sunday, December 4, 2011

So bad

Why dont you love me.  Why cant you come back to me.  I'm so sorry, I hurt you in the past.  I fucked up, so I'm always fucked up now.  Trying to make myself forget about who I was and become someone that you want.  I want you in my life so bad. I want you by side. But you are never there, and I become depressed.  Lost in my memories of you.  Trapped and my present without you.  Afraid of a future without us.  I want to kill myself cause I do not.know what to live for.  I want to live for our relationship.  I want to live for our love.  I want to live for you and everything that you do.  I don't care if you drop out and live on the street as a bum for the rest of your life. I want to be there supporting you. I want us to support each and everything that we do.  I want to tell you my dreams and make yours mine to.  I want us to become in embodiment of each other.  I know I'm losing everything that was me.  I don't want it to go.  I'm trying as hard as I can.  I don't know what else I could do.  I just want it to be me and you.

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